Thursday, August 19, 2010

Don't you wish to change your life a bit?

Seriously, I’m impressed about other peoples’ ability to be creative, stylish, cool, to be talented in sports, cooking or any other activity. I still can’t understand why and how my old fellows are getting married!? Can’t believe that I have to live on my own, look after personal savings, and soon will have to take care of my parents… Kids! They are everywhere! Small, cute, bigger and smaller. How come I don’t have any of them?

What was I thinking about in last 25 years of my life? Why do I feel like I’m behind the time?

Actually, who said that I’m behind the time? The fact that I don’t have girlfriend (I hate this word) means that something wrong with me..? During last few years my heart is open more than ever. I’m more and more keen to go for risk and fell in love with somebody.

Only recently I managed stop stressing about it and let things go. Who knows… maybe after 35 years from now I will look back and mile at myself being independent, free, a bit wild, risky sometimes and childish... That could be a dream of most of old people, isn’t?

Money! God, they are so beautiful, sexy and seductive. They are so powerful, influencing and addictive! I wish my soul could escape from this curse… You know… I went to India for 2 weeks. I saw many people… differently from Pakistan I met there more people happy, but without money.
No, I haven’t spoken to them. Didn’t say hi or didn’t give a single penny. But I saw in their eyes the inner peace. It used to be damn hot outside, dirty, noisy all around you… but this poor man is sitting in the shadow surrounded with serenity. Looking at him you start realizing that all the chaos around you is meaningless!
Aren’t you jealous? Look how busy you are. Check how little time you have every day… Our life looks so pathetic [sometimes].

I love strangers. All kind of strangers. Tall and small; with long hair and no hair at all; with accent and native speakers; poor and rich. And each time I meet one of them – I never ask their name, social status, title at work or where he/she is going or where she/he is coming from.
One smile, one small gesture ‘you go first’ means more than skype account or facebook name. It gives me more mystery. In such moments I love them for the moment I spent with them… don’t you think that a whole life is created of unlimited number of moments. How many of those moments do we remember. So that’s why I chose to enjoy those few moments with strangers in my life…

Everything around me is changing too fast. Faster than I can accept. The one thing which I can count on – is music. The music which I have for years. But all those years haven’t changed the mood they create… Music Gives You Love. Love the music.

P.S. sorry for random thoughts…